meet my best friend!

This is my BEST friend in the entire world!!! We will have been friends for 8 years now on march 18th I do believe ... lol.

I love this dude more than anything, and I cannot explain how thankful I am to have him in my life and to have someone so loyal, understanding, open, and down right halarious in my life!!

I feel like I can be my complete self around him. And I know I can trust him with anything! From dilemmas, to funny times made from any situation at all, to my sad times and my hardest ones... my secrets and all my peeves and my fears lol.

He is actually the one who I get inspiration from when it comes

To wanting to go somewhere with my life...especially when it comes to having a little humour even in the worst situation at the time. And wanting to go to college again....that's all him.

:) but u get the point...

He is a major impact in my life. As are a selective few others, who have their own special part in my life.

But I just thought I would introduce my bestest friend and move forward to my other great friends!

He truly is the best, best friend I could ever ask for. I am so thankful that god placed him in my life!

Love u Jordan.

-Elle

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college? hair dye? smoking goal!

Hey hey all my blogger readers!

Its Elle here back with another blog!

So I got a lot accomplished today! Got household items, got appliances, got to see my big bro and meet a new friend, on top of riding to sweet home to show my uncle Howard my new place before I moved in lol.

I also had to say goodbye to my dear journal today :'(

I used every page as of today... but don't worry, its going in my cubbyhole for memories!

Feeling ok. . .

I had the funniest break down earlier ... I broke down crying because the cups I got....were plastic! Haha....wowwwwww...

Anyways, my best friend Jordan was so mean to me and posted a picture of like a hundred of the same glasses to my status just to tease me haha. . . Gotta love him though!

So...I have some MAJOR hair dye issues.... no matter what I do, my hair always ends up winning .... my hair has a mind of its own and if it don't want to dye, it won't...

Lol...I either bleach out, or go darker. That's my only choice. Sigh.... oh well I guess. Ill figure it out.

But I do have a major goal this year!! I'm going to dye my hair a very natural brunette, and after that dye treatment, I will not be dying my hair for a year or longer! But starting with a year....

So there is my challenge! Since I love to dye it..

But my reasoning for it, is because I am trying to grow my hair out past my boobs for once :) so another goal... Hm... we will see!!

I have also decided to quit smoking by the time June comes around!!

I want to be healthy and live longer..and I want to smell good lol!

it was never about the money, five bucks isn't all that much to me.. even homeless or poor..its not much.

It anyways...

Moving day tomorrow!!!! So excited!! It is going to be awesome.. I get to see my favorite person ever again and I get to be in my very own house again... Ahh how nice that will be!

Anywhoo. Soooooo tired right now :( my eyes r drooping.

Your blogger girl,

Elle

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new years resolution list!

2012 new years resolution list!

Enjoy!

1. Quit smoking by summer

- i want to start being healthy and saving more money, so I figured that this is a good place to start.

2. Reach my goal weight of 130 by 2013.

- i am currently 235! Which is new news to me , just found that out today. I last had a weigh in in august? And i was 262lbs. So since then i have lost 27 lbs roughly!

3. Get a job

- i would really like to have a good job so I can start my life and get to my goals.

4. Get into a regular exercise routine and diet and keep it!

- again, another thing i want for myself so I can be healthy and live a good full life.

5. Go back to college and get my career started.

- my ultimate dream, is to be a music artist. . . But i can settle for a photographer or a writer. My other two passions.

6. Get into a good bible study and maybe a youth group and maybe even lead the band one day!

- it would be nice to get deeper into my faith and develop a stronger relationship with god. :-)

That is all i have planned for my life right now! Hope you enjoyed my goals and dreams.

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what now ?

Hey there!

As promised, i am making a blog updating how my life is going.

So, lets start with my homeless subject. . .

I got evicted on the 17th for letting a friend of a friends friend stay the night because he was a wanted fugitive. And the sniper team, the swat team and half a dozen police officers showed up the next day to arrest him. Lesson learned enough said. I had no idea he was a wanted fugitive. No one did.

As you all know, i was with an amazing guy named haze. But recently his x girlfriend started causing some problems and a lot of messed up stuff happened. Rumour had it that my boyfriend wasn't so into me and was only using me and he stated that it was not true. Ok . . Well, i could see that he had things that he needed to work out with himself and other people, so i put things at a hault until he figured everything out and if he still wanted me then we would see how it went. . . But no word so far.

I only want his happiness and i am always going to be there for him. No matter what happens.

I now feel like it was the wrong choice to do that, but there is nothing i can do now. I will always love and respect him until he gives me a reason not to.

In the process of finding another apartment, i am staying with my aunt until we can figure things out. And i had to give my dog up. . .my pride and joy . . But he is better off. . . . . .

I have an appointment set up for Monday morning to go apply for an apartment in my hometown. And i am happy, but i am sad. Because i will miss everyone i knew in Salem.

I made four dozen cookies today! 19 cupcakes and lasagna for dinner! I also cleaned the house. So Im on a role!

Tomorrow i have church and then making out a good game plan i hope. Starting with dinner and going from there lol.

But so far, that is all that has happened. So I will keep you posted on things soon! I have a few more blogs to post today, so look for those.

Your blogger girl,

Elle <3

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back again...

I know i know !

I haven't made a blog in way too long once again... But a lot of things have happened and i have to now blog from my phone because my computer got stolen :(

So i am sorry for the lack of blogs. I will be posting more blogs in the near future .

Maybe tomorrow after i clean my aunts house i will blog ^_^

Your blogger girl,

Elle

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Gotta Be Somebody....

Listening to some of my life changing songs, and waiting for my boyfriend to wake up can be tiring considering i know that there are a MILLION things i NEED to do, but dont WANT to do at the moment....like, even though i'm sure you guys don't really care lol i'll give you a list anyways, that way i can look over it for myself as well without wasting paper.
lets see...
i need to;

vaccume
sweep
mop
take trash out
gather up my laundry
clean the bathroom
clean the kitchen
do dishes
etc..

sigh*
how did we wind up like this?
i know how....because you NEVER take the flippen time of day to stop being IMMATURE and SELFISH to actually listen to someone when they talk! and i know i'm just being exaggerated with my feelings and how i am expressing them....but seriously? you bullshit someone about "oh i'll always be there for you whenever you need me, i'll always listen and care." actual translation? "yeah sure i GUESS i'll sit there and listen to you like i give a damn, but only when it's convenient for ME and when i'm done listening to your bullshit, im gonna leave...so um...go ahead...talk..."

*sigh* WHY ARE PEOPLE SO FRUSTRATING!!!!!!!
a year of new starts, and i start out the year listening to an immature little kid....awesome...

i know i am WAY bi-polar! that WHOLE rant was about one of my friends...he is seriously pissing me off to NO end....but it's whatever i guess...i dont HAVE to put up with him, i CHOOSE to...not like he really cares either way...BUT whatever..
this is just me ranting, and the whole reason behind that rant was because while blogging this i was talking with him and he started ..... nevermind .... JUST NEVERMIND....
anyways...

so um...i need to clean the house but i need to seriously GET OUT of this house! because unless i call up my BEST friend Jordan, i am seriously gonna go INSANE! because no one else will listen. and i dont want to say what i was gonna say....so um...
im just gonna go do that..
sorry for the off blog today guys. hopefully it wont be so angry or so bipolar next time. . . bleh!
there's gotta be somebody out there....

Another Day....Another Breath

so it has been RIDICULOUSLY too long since i have posted a blog i KNOW. lol.
i have just been super busy lately, and i haven't really been in the mood to blog. sorry about that. but i'm back and i should be back on track with posting daily. ^_^
so A LOT has happened since December 23rd of 2011. . . and i have NO idea where to begin!
so i guess i can sum it up with Christmas Eve all the way through present day. :)

so in summary my Christmas Eve and Christmas Day was pretty good. got a lot of really great presents from my family and i had a blast spending time with them. . . i found out that i am moving out of my stupid apartment very VERY soon!!! me and my mother were having this debate over when the lease on this place was up, and i said it was the first of February and she said it was the end of february......WELLLLL........she won...lol damn her!
oh well. i am SO happy to FINALLY get out of this place!!!
i found this really SUPER cute apartment that is kind of perfect for me and my puppy Sammie :)
my boyfriend might be moving in with us though in March. but that isnt set and stone quite yet.
but it is over by state street RIGHT next (or slightly down the street from) the psycho ward!!! haha....but it is quiet, and it is upstairs. but lucky for me, the garbage is really close, it's quiet, and the staircase is only one flight. so i am super happy about that. and it's kind of cute. because the stairs are kind of small lol, well the steps are. and they have carpet on them, but there is one really creepy thing about the apartment, right outside of my door on the ceiling is the door to the attic. *shivers* lol HAUNTED MUCH!? esp. with being next to the crazy place.

anyways.
my new years kind of sucked......my boyfriend Max decided to make a decision without me and leave where he was and go to another place, and we have only talked like......one? time since then....soooo..kinda sux ass...
BUT i am with an AMAZING guy named Haze right now, and he is SO good to me! i love him <3
idk...i guess i just adore how romantic he is :)
i dont want to repeat everything that has happened, because i feel like that's all i do is talk about it.
but i will name a few things that i loved so far.

1. he was really romantic with me when he was re-teaching me how to play the wii
2. i love how he looks at me when he says he loves me, or just in general.
3. how i dont hear how beautiful or sexy i am every second of the day, so when he does compliment anything about me it's really special and i can appreciate it more.
4. his humor
5. how when we cuddle i feel like the world just stops spinning for moments at a time, and how he plays with my hair.
6. when he sleeps, he lays on my lap and i look down at him, he looks so happy and so peaceful. and all i want for him is happiness. which we sealed with a kiss when we agreed to make each other the happiest we could :)

anyways...so much more.
but we have this odd schedule lol it kind of makes me giggle.
he will come over for 2 days, then leave for a day and then come back over for 2 days and then leave for a day and so on. haha. it's kind of funny.

anyways, so me and Haze's anniversary is now officially (as of the day we got together) (omg...DUH! lol....fail...)
is January 2nd, 2012.
one day after mine and hiei's and one day before Sotros's birthday. haha....EPIC!
but yeah...
i'm kind of disappointed in the responses that i have gotten from some people. a lot of people responded nicely and were happy for me, but a select few weren't so supportive...but that's ok, i mean, i get where they are coming from to a point.
anyways, comment below and tell me how your holidays have been!
peace!

your blogger girl,
Annabelle